Today went well. I went to the holistic vet to pick up the supplements. I’ve never been to that clinic before but it’s very nice (several dogs inside just hanging out including the vets own shepherd that was bigger than Kilo) and the girls there all love shepherds and were very helpful.
After that we went to see our regular vet who hadn’t seen Kilo since this all started. We were going to same clinic but had a different vet on this case since my vet wasn’t on the night we had to go in. Anyway he was very helpful explaining everything and answering our questions. He explained that it’s a very peaceful way for Kilo to go (the ultrasound specialist made it out to sound like it would be this traumatizing event that he would be suffering and that we should’ve put him down right then and there). He examined kilo’s belly very thoroughly and explained he couldn’t feel any masses and could hear the liquid sloshing around so it’s not to the point of causing him pain but if it does get worse (and his belly will feel hard in that case not squishy like it is) he can come back here and they can drain it. He also said Kilo can still run and play and do stuff like that and told me the signs to watch for if he has a bleed or if it’s his time.
Overall it was a very informative appointment, he said we are doing a good job and doing everything good we can. And explained the signs to show what will happen if Kilo does start to be in pain.
I don’t know why the ultrasound vet was pressuring us to put him down asap and that he would be suffering and it would be this horrible death basically. We feel a bit better about it now and with the symptoms he shows now we know he isn’t in pain or suffering. I am so glad I decided to get that consultation with our vet he is so good about explaining everything. He was glad to hear I had gone to the holistic vet simply because he isn’t very familiar with what she is starting us on.
Kilo did really good despite being in the car for the hour drive there and back to the holistic vet. It was like a torrential downpour today so it’s flooding places so we took the jeep and luckily had the car ramp so he isn’t jumping in and out.
Talking to a friend of mine, she said she’s heard similar things about the ultrasound vet we were at (who basically told me to put Kilo down that day or make an appt to be put down, or else he would have a horrible traumatic death at any time). That they sensationalize things and have told other people to euthanize their dogs for things their regular vet said is normal and not an issue. I guess there are some vets out there that aren’t really very compassionate and don’t understand wanting to spend money on an older dog or dog with cancer. I’m really not impressed about that last appt. To them Kilo would’ve just been a write off but I guess they don’t understand me wanting to give him some time?
Like it’s a really shitty diagnosis to get but it doesn’t help the vet is almost pressuring you to euthanize your dog even though he’s not in any pain or anything..it will get worse, but right now he just has slower days where he wants to sleep. No panting, or hard to get comfortable. Plus she made it sound like draining the fluid was an expensive procedure that wouldn’t be worth doing because it would fill up probably as fast as draining it. I’d understand pressuring me to euth if he was visibly in pain but he isn’t. You wouldn’t know anything was wrong apart from his bigger belly.
Anyway, sorry for the rant/ramble. I’m just so, so relieved I went back to my regular vet. He explains everything in such great detail and understands that I am just wanting to treat Kilo palliative as long as he isn’t in pain. But holy this whole past week was so depressing and stressful. I was feeling so selfish for not listening to the ultrasound vet on making arrangements to have him euthanized, or for even taking him home and not euthanizing him that day. I wonder how many dogs were put down when they didn’t need to be :/