How are you today?

How are you today?

I’m alright. Just kind of numb. I’ve gotten good at just. Forcing things from my mind and not thinking of them but the smallest things bring it all flooding back. Just seeing his favourite toy is so hard. When it was breakfast or dinner time he would go find it and bring it to me and drop it on my lap. I just taught him to do that recently in exchange for his meals. It was adorable and after he learned he could get meals from giving me that toy he would carry it around all the time and use it as a pillow to sleep on. Now it’s just sitting there covered in dried slobber.